2010 was a year with a lot of up, a lot of down, but mainly a lot of in between.

Visas for London swam into reach, then just out of reach, and finally? gone. Completely. But I’m okay with that now (mainly).
There was the day-and-a-half where I was fired and all the associated work drama which I do not discuss on the internet – except to say that I am much happier now.
Craig and I didn’t manage to leave New Zealand but planned our January trip back to Hawaii.
I made all 365 days of photography! But felt uninspired a lot of the time.

However, one can only enter a new year with high hopes. I had them for 2010 and I have them for 2011.

In 2011 I will:
x be more frugal
x maintain the healthy-ish lifestyle I managed in 2010
x declutter
x take a photo every damn day
x keep percolating this tattoo idea. If I am still enamoured of it in May? It will be mine.

In 2011 I am looking forward to:
x Hawaii
x Summer Shakespeare
x Working hard
x Photography

Let’s see how it goes. I can’t wait!


Week Fifty-Two

The Week in Photographs

Sunday: Pouring Rain
It was pouring with rain and surprisingly chilly. Perfect for lounging around watching West Wing (yes, still).

Monday: Instax Beehive - Creating a giftcard
My instax and the Beehive – I was creating a gift tag.

Tuesday: Raining ... Again.
I was actually just trying to get a shot of the rain drops on the ivy. Luckily I didn’t even notice the huge fucking moth until downloading the photos from my camera. Just thinking about it makes me shudder.

Wednesday: Presents Wrapped
Presents all purchased and carefully wrapped. Note the instax gift tags!

Thursday: Choc-Candy-Cane Cupcakes for work
For morning tea on my final day at work I made chocolate cupcakes with peppermint cream cheese icing topped with a piece of candy cane. Luckily noone noticed that the wrappers were covered with chili peppers.
I figured they were red and green and white and that was CLOSE ENOUGH.

Friday: Rothko Cookie
The family came to Park Place for desserts on Christmas Eve. Charlotte provided gingerbread cookies and little tubes of icing so we could ice our own.
I chose the very christmassy Rothko. It made sense at the time.

Saturday: Delicious Delicious Entrees
More food. I know. But the smoked salmon filoettes my darling mother made were amazing. And the tapenade ones in the background? a pretty contrast.


Xmas Eve Outfit

Christmas at Park Place, 2010

Peace on Earth. Favourite card

Bunny Statuette from Etsy

Friday: Berries for Summer Xmas

Glow in the dark Skull

Mousse version 2

Lights at Night

I am officially on holiday. For a month.
I’m not entirely sure what I’m going to do with myself.
I’m hoping to make a dent in the books-to-read pile which has been teeteringly tall for the better part of the year. I’m hoping to get sand between my toes and salt water in my hair – covered, as always, in 70+ sunscreen (yes, seriously).

Craig and I are headed to Pauanui which I hear is a beach, and then to Hawaii, which I know is a beach.
Who am I? This yen for sun and sea is completely unlike me.
But I’m not going to argue. It’ll make Craig happy.

Before then however there is Christmas.

Tonight the family are massing at Park Place for desserts and Christmas movies.
There is chocolate mousse with crushed candy cane topping, chocolate-peppermint cupcakes, and oodles of fresh berries.
There is Elf, Love Actually, and While You Were Sleeping.

And a lot of wine.

Week Fifty-One

The Week in Photographs

Sunday: I love these creepy santas
In anticipation of the tree which never arrived I brought out the creepy santas which I adore.

Monday: Marking my lines
In a quiet moment at work I took the time to mark my lines for Much Ado About Nothing.
I play Don John – cast because of my natural malevolence.

Tuesday: Broken decoration at the office
Poor fowl. Broken christmas decorations in the office.

Wednesday: Sunset from Park Place
Beautiful striations in the sunset from Park Place.

Thursday: A tree! Finally!
A silver star atop our new (black) faux christmas tree.

Friday: BAD at being a grown up
Sometimes Craig and I are TERRIBLE at being grownups. Candy canes and canned food. Not a meal amongst it all.

Saturday: Decorating at Trinity
Decorating the family tree at Trinity. This is the stocking I’ve had for as long as I can remember – handmade by my grandmother.


Frazzled. Post-Work

On being tattooed

Unzipping my work dress

My favourite time of the day at the moment is just before 7am.
I take a moment, before getting dressed, I look in the mirror and, more often than not, I smile.

It’s wholly and completely unlike me. I have always had a realistic sense of self.
Or rather, I’ve always accepted my egotistical self-disinterest as merely one of the many many facets of my shiny personality.

I’ve always been more intelligent than pretty. Verbose rather than beautiful.
Too short, too round*, too pale, too baby-faced.
Too prone to pedantry.

I’ve wielded fashion like a mask, a costume.
Camouflaging myself with the generic fashions of my friends, the black and studs of the goth, distracting people with my cleavage, wearing clothes which exposed me and hid me all at once.

But my tattoos? My tattoos are me.
I designed them, I chose them, I endured the pain of them. I adore them.

It’s taken me far too long to work this out. But every so often I turn to Craig and I say I just love my tattoos. I can’t keep it in!

* admittedly, the weight loss of the last two years has probably helped as well.

Week Fifty

The Week in Photographs

Sunday: A grey day - West  Wing
A terrible grey-mood day. I attempted to assuage it with The West Wing.

Monday: Decorations in the Office!
I arrived in the office to Christmas decorations!

Tuesday: Valley Lights
Lights in the Valley.

Wednesday: Bunny Sculpture
My new adorable bunny sculpture arrived. They now live on our mantel. So cute. And somewhat creepy.

Thursday: inverted pentagram
An inverted pentagram on the window display for Cue. Odd, n’est-ce-pas?

Friday: I recognise these men
I recognise two of these men. And the dog. I mean, I recognise the dog is a DOG, but I don’t …
You know what I mean.

Saturday: lowlowlow clouds
Lowlow clouds and the beginnings of pears on our pear tree.



Keeping the Beasts at Bay

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I have so many things to plan for at the moment. Bits and pieces building up in my head so much that I suspect soon they will start to push my hair. And I LIKE my hair.

My family makes light of my tendency to plan and over plan for everything. But! There’s not so much stress, I find. They don’t believe me.
Horrible people.

It’s just … there is SO much to fit in. So much I want to do.
Christmas plans for one. I may have my christmas shopping 90% done* but there is the eve, the morning, and the dinner, and the day after.

And then? The time between Christmas and the New Year. We have a Burke family reunion (of sorts) to attend, a friend visiting from Japan to see, and my darling Katrinka and her Dave visiting from snowy snow Edinburgh. We plan to drink a lot of wine, and I plan to convince her to cut her hair even shorted.

Don’t even get me started on Hawaii.
I didn’t plan at all, really, last time we went because I was pretty certain I would hate it. Of course, I loved it. So we’re going back. Only this time there’s so much more I want to see and do.

Yes, I want to do a lot of lying on the beach, swimming, and eating terrible/amazing food (The Magnum P.I. Burger! Coldstone Creamery! Yes please) but I also want to shop**, see lava, and go snorkelling with Manta Rays. These things need planning.
Because according to my frantic googling? Only the shopping and beaching can be done on Oahu.

So right now? I keep my sanity (mostly) intact? I’m starting with a to do list of things to do.
Lest my hair fall out.

* And I’ve only changed my mind about one of the presents so far. This is the benefit of buying presents that I wouldn’t mind myself.
** I’ve even warned Craig about this. He needs warning before shopping. I mean, it might just be the way I shop, but I suspect that it’s just him. Okay, maybe it’s mainly me.

Week Forty-Nine

The Week in Photographs

Sunday: Laundry day
Sunday as Laundry day. I hate having so many things to hand wash.

I also tidied up all my jewellery. This drawer is just filled with the stuff fancy enough to warrant remaining in their boxes. I also have two muji jewellery boxes and the hooks on my wall for long necklaces. In short? I have a lot of jewellery.
But I love it all.

Tuesday: Handlebar Moustache and a Corona
The last day of Craig’s handlebar moustache.

Wednesday: Namaste from Bangalore
Namaste from Bangalore!
I donated to the lovely Sarah Von of Yes and Yes and received a little package in return.

Thursday: Flowering Flax
Flowering Flax behind the Beehive.

Friday: Forgot Breakfast
I spent too long on my hair and couldn’t have breakfast at home. So I ate what was essentially a LOT of sugar in the guise of Wishbone Berry and Custard.

Saturday: Nouveau Swimsuit!
The black and white stripes? An adorable new bathing suit.


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